I’m Not Alright

September 24th, 2010

Please stop calling me
it’s okay, I’m not alright
But I’ll get by each day
and I’ll make it through the night

I’m not okay
but yeah, it’s alright
Perhaps someday
I will again feel the light

of your sweet heart
shining down on me
until then my friend
I have to let you be

Be happy
please be free
to live your life and dreams
the way you think your life should be

Then I’ll be okay
and I won’t fall apart
and maybe one day
you’ll return my heart

till then who knows
oh who can say
oh who can say
I’ll be okay

Going to Chicago

September 22nd, 2010

Going to Chicago
’cause I got to say goodbye
Yeah I’m going to Chicago
Girl I got to say goodbye

Well it breaks my heart so bad
On the plane I had to cry

Looking out my window
Watch the sun break the sky
Yeah I’m looking out the window
Watch the sun breaking the sky

These clouds are dark and sad
As they slowly roll on by

I’ll always love Chicago
Guess I’ll never learn
You know I’ll always love Chicago
But I guess I’ll never learn

She stole my heart there
years ago
Now I’m too old
to return

So goodbye my darling
I’ve got to let you go
Oh goodbye my sweet darling
I have to walk away and let you go

You can dream of someday
but in your heart you already know

for Pamela

Heart of Tears

July 25th, 2010

Another cold Vermont morning
is broken open by the dawn
it’s fragile sun kissed promises
are slowly bleeding on our lawn

I reach out my hand to touch you
you were never really there
The illusion we had shattered
now broken beyond repair

You tried your best to love me
gave me everything you could
I loved you with all my heart
but that was never any good

I wish that we were much younger
and could tell ourselves the truth
But life can’t ever go backwards
and we’ve long said goodbye to youth

Each year we dragged into the next
a love left hanging by a thread
Every day it died a little more
until one day it was finally dead

After all that time now its over
a love exhausted, disappears
my hearts left barely beating now
instead of blood it’s full of tears

I know you’re tired of crying too
you have nothing left you want to say
So I’ve given up and I’ve given in
I guess I’ll just be on my way

It hurts worse that I can’t lose you
because you were never really mine
Best of luck to the next good man
that I’m certain you’re sure to find

No matter what roads we travel
sadness follows right along
like part of any real journey
or the best parts of a song

Maybe someday there’ll be laughter
and all our sorrow, it will fade
I hope you find what you’re missing
and you can chase this pain away

© 2010 Zawacki  for Dana Zawacki