Did You Ever Love Me

November 21st, 2010

warm tears drop
like summer rain
my hearts bleeding
broken again

storm clouds gather
eclipse the sun
cries like thunder
she was the one
was she the one

let it all go now
and fade to black
wishes all wasted
you can’t call back

was just an illusion
you can’t control
in all this confusion
I gambled my soul
yeah I lost my soul

did you ever love me
or was it just someday
to save your fantasy
so much safer that way

to never have to know love
or if the passion would fade
we sacrificed our true love
for the settled lives we made

You set my heart afire
just to watch me burn
it’s been twenty years
and I’ve yet to learn

can’t stop the tears girl
and I can’t take the pain
since I know for sure now
I’ve lost you again
oh I’ve lost you again

wind strips the trees
till they bend and shake
twice in one lifetime
made the same mistake

No don’t look back girl
there is no one to blame
the breeze sadly echoes
it’s haunting refrain
this haunting refrain

did you ever love me
or was it just someday
to save your fantasy
so much safer that way

to never have to know love
or if the passion would fade
we sacrificed our true love
for the choices that we made

My old heart aches
it’s been ripped out from my chest
and I can’t stop crying girl
god I swear I’ve tried my best

But I no longer taste the laughter
that you danced upon my tongue
and I can’t hear your sweet music
so I don’t want to feel the sun
oh how I miss the sun

Without you it’s just not living
and now’s so hard to draw a breath
so I hope that you’ll forgive me
when I have nothing left

my life’s been drained of all color
and I am cold but I cant sleep
instead I close my eyes again
and allow my soul to weep
just allow my soul to weep

did you ever love me
or was it just someday
to save your fantasy
so much safer that way

than to ever have to know love
or a passion that could burn
we sacrificed our true love
for the lessons that we learned
what cruel lessons we have learned

My dearest darlingist

October 20th, 2010

Open your heart
let the love in
Close your eyes
and surrender then
Perhaps one day
your soul will sing
And fill your life with joys
those songs can bring

I’m Not Alright

September 24th, 2010

Please stop calling me
it’s okay, I’m not alright
But I’ll get by each day
and I’ll make it through the night

I’m not okay
but yeah, it’s alright
Perhaps someday
I will again feel the light

of your sweet heart
shining down on me
until then my friend
I have to let you be

Be happy
please be free
to live your life and dreams
the way you think your life should be

Then I’ll be okay
and I won’t fall apart
and maybe one day
you’ll return my heart

till then who knows
oh who can say
oh who can say
I’ll be okay